When I think of her.
I don't think I can be happier.
That's with a lot of shit going wrong.
Which makes it even more profound.
I think I'll eat a hot dog and wait for her to call.
Maybe watch Sigma Six.

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this is epic.
Alex Gayhart

I really do. It's my favorite time of the year. Always has been and hopefully will continue to be. I've started exercising again. Which is cool. I've lost a couple of pounds. I really wish I could hover around 160. But it's hard for me. Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and I'll be visiting my father. I hope he likes his gifts, but I'm most excited about what I got Camry. I'll give a more detailed entry once I actually experience Christmas. I've developed an actual system for collecting my Tformers. I'm going to attempt to use some spare cash to make headway in that realm. I love collecting. But I love collecting TFormers more than I used to because Camry and I actually do this together. She has a modest collection of around 15 or so. She primarily digs green transformers (ala Universe Acid Storm). Well that's all for now friends.
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Hangin' out.
Alex Gayhart

The Semester is over. I think I've lost my scholarship. That's pretty rad. At least I get a month of rest and Camry to help me get past everything. Grades go up tomorrow (I think), and that will suck. I should probably write more in here, maybe I will. I'm planning on starting back in Warcraft (quit because of Finals/end of semester stress). I would start back, that is, if mom gave me the nearly 2,000 dollars she has borrowed from me. :/ *sigh* Well, in the relationship realm everything is perfect. No fights, 19 months. Woo. Well 19 months may not seem long to some people, but it's a decent stretch to me. We have a lot of fun, fun that I can't have with just anybody. She gets me and will listen to me ramble on about many things including the aggravation of the Shinsei series rebooting the continuity every film. My web Comic is up to 201 issues. Which is pretty rad. Didn't think it'd last this long, but there it is...being read by all of 2 people. Lulz. I WANT TO PLAY WARCRAFT AGAIN :(. Camry is playing, but when her 30 day trial runs out it'll charge my debit card. It doesn't have much money on it and it was actually supposed to be spent on Camry's last Christmas Gift. Which I'm not even sure about anymore. WHAT WILL IT BE!? Who knows. But it needs to be something neat.
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Well, I'm out of here, for now
Alex Gayhart

I have no classes today. I do however have a six page paper due. Will I work on it? Probably not. I'll probably work on Wrath of the Lich King instead. Why? Because I'm crazy. I think it'll be okay though. I'll get down here early Sunday. Spend seven hours (1 for setting the font/margins n' such, then an hour for each page.) writing it. Then Monday night at home I'll edit it a bit and then ship it off. I'm probably skipping Philosophy. I'm allowed three crappy quiz grades in the class because they will be removed at the end of the class. I've gotten two B's on two quizzes, so I'm just going to skip and get a 0.

Last class was about Gay marriage. Which shouldn't be an issue. It pretty much bothers me because I can't see how it affects people. It doesn't destroy the sanctity of marriage, I would kind of like to think that the fact around half of all marriages end in divorce would be the culprit of that attack on our American way. Plus there's the whole separation of Church and State thing. So, why is it a big deal? I've had people say things to me like "Well you wouldn't want to see guys kissing in public would you?" to that I replied "If I'm walking down the street and see two gay guys naked and fucking on one part of the sidewalk and then see a straight couple naked and fucking on the other part of the sidewalk I will be shocked at both." I dunno if they got it, they laughed. So did other people. But the point I was trying to make is that straight people shouldn't make out in public, and neither should gay people. Because they're both valid sexualities. I think these people are homophobic and hate homosexuals because they chronically masturbate to guy on guy porn. I'm stereotyping because I rarely meet a woman who hates homosexuals even in this bizarre neck of the woods

Now onto things less controversial, my relationship. I dunno if this is what a relationship should be like. I mean, it might be right, and I may be looking at it wrong. And if this isn't going how it should I dunno what to do, but I feel comfortable. I really and honestly do. Camry makes me less stressed, she understands and accepts my personality quirks. She's just the perfect person to be my companion. I don't think I would ever be able to drop my guard like I do around her. I realize that a lot of these entries praise her, but..I'm not religious....though I am thankful for what I have. So this is a sort of anonymous thanks for what she must go through to be with me. lulz. I <3 my Camry, and bully to us for not arguing. Though it may be due to our indecisive natures, which isn't a bad thing because we've atleast confirmed our decision that we'll be together and that's enough for this guy.

The winter movie season has begun. I say winter because they call the summer one in spring...so yeah. I watched Quantum of Solace, this week I'm taking Camry to see Twilight which will be disappointing. There's also Australia, Punisher: War Zone, Day the Earth Stood Still (Will it trump the original?), The Spirit, Valkyrie, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, Defiance. Yeah. So hopefully my wallet holds up against all that.

Camry and I have been dating a year and a half. And things are pretty epic. Like unbelievably so. I love her, and I feel comfortable around here in ways I'm never comfortable anywhere else. I mean I still have moments of self loathing, but they go away when she's near. I'm thinking about skipping Psychology since I don't have HIstory of the Universe today. I can't skip my art class, because I have to finish my animation. So, I dunno. I just can't wait to get home. Camry and I shall be watching a little of Taken, some Godzilla movies, and watching Quantum of Solace on Friday. Lich King is released tonight. I'm debating on whether or not I should go to a midnight release thing.
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I LOVES TEH CAMREH WOOT
Alex Gayhart

Sugoicon was alright, could have been better,
will elaborate later. Hung out with Camry today,
it was nice :) Obama seems to be winning. Huzzah
for that.
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Goodnight
Alex Gayhart

Well, I'm heading to Sugoicon soon. Woke up like 30 minutes earlier than expected. So I have time to type in this thing. This is a pretty crazy schedule. I'm leaving from Camry's at 9, picking up Keisha, getting gas in Hazard. Then we drive around about 4 hours. Arrive, hopefully check in without difficulty, and then I leave on Sunday. They're picked up at Morehead, and I have a full week this week. In short I cannot wait till Christmas break. In other news I think Camry and I are both sick. Oh noez.
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Woo, Sugoicon, though it's a pretty small con, but I've saved money for the one big con I can afford this year..
Alex Gayhart

This weekend, should everything go to plan, will be fantastic. Woo Sugoicon. Hopefully my Joker costume works out. Anyway. Hit level 70 in WoW. Been enjoying a world event about zombies. I hate Zombies, but enjoy the event. Strange, no? I'm doing terrible in school. Meh. Oh wellz I'm trying to just say "fuck it" and "As long as I get my degree" mom won't agree but oh wellz. On the relationship front things are perfect. As to be expected Miss Hays is wonderful as always. We're very close to a year and a half. And no arguments. I think I mention that a lot in here but I'm very surprised by it. I miss her non stop when I'm on campus. I tried calling last night but her phone was dead. So of course I thought up a thousand terrible scenarios and worried. Though my worrying was cut short by the tremendous head ache I had. Well I guess I'll head out and get some food since my first class was canceled. This kind of sucks since were going to work on flash animation. Le sigh. I wish it were Wednesday. I'm not staying for Rocky Horror...because...love Rocky Horror though I may. Time with Camry takes precedent over everything else. That may not seem healthy to some, but Camry is the one person on earth who doesn't judge me and who just makes me feel like I'm worth something.
I miss her. Alot.
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Wooot
Alex Gayhart

it is
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yep
Alex Gayhart

I don't know what to fill this thing with. I'm thinking I may do toy reviews or some such thing. It seems that's what I know about anyway. So there we have it. And now,
for a survey
1. Longest relationship: approximately a couple days shy of 1.5 years. Camry and I will hit that mark in November.

2. Shortest relationship: Collectively 4 months.

3. How many people have you broken up with? I never really break up with people. I sit in silence and suffer it out. (Oddly like my father did with my parents' marriage)

4. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you? 3. Only one means it. Because she actually acts as though she loves me. What with accepting who I am and being patience with all my personality quirks.

5. Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with? Well, right now I reallllyyy feel that. I feel that we could get married today, and it'd work out well for all involved. I've brought up the idea in other relationships. Because for some reason, I've been obsessed with marriage and strange things about relationships (waking up to the person you're with for example) that would cause me to be dubbed a "faggot" where I'm from. I don't think my last two relationships could ever have resulted in such a thing. Camry gets where I'm coming from and seems to have the same understanding, though not the same bizarre obsession.

6. Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt? Hrmm, well it doesn't hurt from love. But I hate being away from Camry.

7. Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? Um, yeah. Camry. She's very sensitive, and I make her cry when I say bizarre things which to me, sound like compliments. We sort things out afterwards, but it really makes me feel terrible to cause that reaction in her.

8. Have you ever cried over a boyfriend or girlfriend? Yeah. In the past I used relationships as a security blanket. Luckily I realized that in order to have a real relationship I'd have to seek out someone who had my interests and understood me. So I found Camry.

9. Are you happy being single or in relationships? I was happy being single after Bre. I mean, who wouldn't be ama' right? But being with Camry is the best situation I've ever been in. So I'm happier in this relationship than being single.

10. Have you ever cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend? Nope.

11. Have you ever been cheated on? Lulz, I have reasons to suspect.

12. What is the most important PART of being in a relationship? Talking about things, and supporting one another. Camry has low self esteem (like me) and I always compliment her. BECAUSE SHE IS WRONG! I do a lot of strange art projects and she always supports whatever idiotic thing I do.

13. What is the worst part of being in a relationship? ...Kedo. *shrug*

14. Worst relationship? Bre. I could have sat and had someone bitch at me for a year and half straight and I would have just lived through the same thing.

15. Have you ever had your heart broken? Nope.

16. Do you talk to any of your exes? Nope. They often times make attempts, but I want nothing to do with them.

17. If you could go back in time and change things to where you could still be with one of your exes, would you? No. I'd just have started dating Camry when she first started liking me.

Well that's that. Time to go get food/watch Heroes/then walk for 3 hours. I miss my Camreh.
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IT'S A BRAND NEW CAR!
Alex Gayhart